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sleep :(

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 14:13:12 GMT

So, been having a hard time sleeping lately... until I found this imovane. It really works good for me, but it's meant for, quote "short-term treatment of insomnia characterized by difficulty in falling asleep". There's also a bunch of other insomnia drugs You can try... good luck!Or you could just a fat hit of Lowryder in the evening to mellow out :).

Bad vibes

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 11:53:11 GMT

There are many different factors that can make you feel that there are some bad vibes or negativity around someone. In this section I want to try and make you aware of all the different possibilities of why this can be so. There are many and a limited understanding can lead you to the wrong conclusions about the cause.

Also understand that on an inner level you only recognise something as negative or bad because something within yourself is out of alignment. THIS IS THE TRUTH. This is a difficult one to explain, but when you are still well embedded in separation and your own misalignments then you still react to things from a place of separation. You are afraid of certain things (certain entities for example) or perhaps you make judgements, you choose for example to see your path as better or worse than some other paths. All of this is an illusion. When you are better standing in your own LARGER SELF then you come to realise that whatever it is within yourself that is identifying and reacting to something such that you feel 'bad vibes' is itself only able to do this because it is holding to some area of separation. Another way of explaining this is that as you come close to encompass ALL THAT YOU ARE then in essence as you are embracing EVERYTHING you cannot then be separate from anything and to identify anything as being better or worse than anything else would only help to point out what you still hold as separate within yourself.

At a certain point then you don't pick up bad vibes, however until you HOLD this more encompassing understanding in your Being then keep in mind all of the possibilities that can result in you feeling them.

Im just generic. Well, there it is.

Wed, 15 Nov 2006 11:51:18 GMT

You're thinking of doing it. Maybe pills, maybe a razor blade, maybe a fiery crash in the car. The world around you is dark and impossible, and there are times when you don't even have the strength to think about what might come next. You're not sleeping or you're sleeping all the time, you're not eating (at least not anything that is good for you), your sexual drive is non-existent. You don't want to talk about it to anyone. As a matter of fact, you've kept just about everyone in your life at arms' length - just to be with them is painful, intrusive.

The people around you spend all their time telling you how worried they are about you. You answer that you're fine, or that you're just tired. Then you go back to your room and close the door.

You think about death all the time: how it would feel, how it might happen, what comes after. There are days when it is so painful to keep going that death feels like the best solution.

There's a name for what you're going through. It's called Clinical Depression. It's not a fault or a weakness or a failure. It's a disease. It comes, not from your feelings or your experience or your personality, but from your body. And, with the help of a doctor, it can be fixed.

Depressed people don't like to talk very much, especially about their depression, but that doesn't mean they're not looking for answers. We hope you will find some of your answers here. This web site has been created by people who have been where you are now. We have all beaten depression, and we know you can, too.

Treating depression takes a little time, but not as much time as you have spent feeling lousy. Treating depression involves working with a good psychiatrist who knows something about psychopharmacology (the study of medication which can correct mood and affective disorders) and we'll tell you how to find one near you. Treating depression involves a treatment program which may include medication or talk therapy, but treatment is always easier than you would imagine. Most of all, treating depression is successful. You can have your life back. You can feel good again.